Lani

I figured that the best way for me to understand me is to start at the beginning of all the women in my life..or at least the key ones and let my thoughts be known and maybe figure out me somewhere in the process.


The title says it all, she was the first woman that i slept with, and the first woman to totally destroy my heart and mess with my head. It was the summer going into my senior year, we met and started dating, and things eventually led to sex. The first time was actually kind of funny cause in the middle of my Jason Sciartilli called me and tried to have a conversation with me. I used a condom but didnt understand at that time just what was going on with future events.

A few weeks later we broke up, and yes she was also my first love, or should i say lust. When we broke up she told me that she was pregnant and it was mine. I dont remember much of the next few days or weeks, my head was spinning at what all of it meant with school, sports and life in general. Eventually my mom found out and when she got involved the story changed and she said it was a false alarm. I was destroyed by this point, i thought my school days would be to help pay for the coming baby and i was raised to do the right thing and i was prepared to marry her. God i was naive.

I didnt speak to her for years, and then one day i was talking to tara her sister and from there tara asked me to take her to NY so she could see her mother. I had no problem with that, and while there started talking to Lani again. The devious side of me wanted to get back with her so i could get even with her. It started out that way, i had designs to get even with her in every which way i could. I made sure after i found out she cheated on me I found a coworker who found me attractive and cheated on Lani to get even. Hell i wasnt even upset that she cheated on me, since i figure she would anyways.

I ended up spending my income tax moving her and her son willie back to pa so she could be closer to her father and sister. Things were ok between us, and after a while i noticed that things were starting to get a little different and i suspected and later confirmed that she was cheating on me again. This time i didnt bother cheating on her, but i started saving money to leave her, and one day i just up and left her high and dry. I felt since she wanted to be with another man that he could take care of her i was done. Since then i havnt bothered with her, but i wouldnt be surprised if she cheated on her husband every chance she got.