Monday, October 24, 2011

Jean L

I met her at a cross road in my life, even for the ripe young age of 19 it was a major turning point in my evolution.

I was friends with her brother, and one night we were at a party at his house when i first met her, she was absolutly beautiful. She was tall with long legs, a great smile, a killer personality, and a beautiful body. At the time i was so into getting drunk that it was the natural thing for me to get her a few drinks. Both of us were pretty drunk, and man could she drink with the best of them.

We hooked up and even though she wanted to have sex, i couldnt bring myself to have sex with her since she was so drunk, so i just put her to bed slept myself and left the next morning.

We started dating for the rest of the summer, and in the middle of the summer my son Thomas was born. After being with my son all i wanted to do was be a good dad and i left her heart broken to try and make things work with my sons mom. It was not an easy decision and one that i am not proud of but i was trying to do the best that i can for my son.

Fast forward a few years, I was playing baseball in the summer and as I was getting ready to play in a game who do i see but jean watching the game. I found out later that her plan was to get me to fall in love with her and then drop me on my head so i knew how it felt. Safe to say that the plan didnt work. We dated for a while and i ended it when i came to realize that she wouldnt stand up to her parents about me. If she loved me like she said then it would have been no problem but i never gave her the chance to prove it either way and I left her...months later I saw her again but i was already married and she was beyond pissed at me and she had the right to be after the way i treated her..she was a bit of a whore in college but i saw the good in her.

bring it to the nearer present, i started talking to her again right when i needed her friendship the most...during my divorce and the subsequent bullshit with my exwife. We managed to hash our the past a bit and i dont blame her for having a jaded opinion of me at times. i did break her heart twice...she has turned out to be a great mom, and as always a good woman and a good friend.

She is still important to me cause no matter what i get total honesty eve if i dont want to hear it

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